Almost a year I know Eva, first time I saw her on Jambore, there’s something weird in my heart.
I convinced myself, Eva already had boyfriend. And that feeling was common cause I’m to long not knowing a girl.
Day by day I always convinced that and still… my feeling not less, even a little bit.
Until I’m going to Pangrango, I found a news that Eva no longer had boyfriend. Yippee…. I feel so relieved deep down in my heart, finally I had opportunity (sorry if I’m to cruel about this).
But still, I tried to convinced myself that just a dream in a daylight.
Day by day I still fooling myself. And one day I tried to braving myself to call Eva and knowing much more about Eva. I always thinking about Eva more and more everyday.
Is it love? Am I falling in love with Eva? Is Eva the right person for me?
That kind of questions always in my mind.
I’m starting to pray to Allah about this, hoping to find some clues.
>>>Day by day, I always hoping the best. Unfortunately, recently Eva give me her final decision. No matter what she feeling about me, she will not married me. Permanently. She just want me to be her friend, not more.
Oh God, is it Your plan? Why it’s hurting me so much?
>>>And from now on, day by day I’m trying to live with it. Since my mom died, I try to survive and thanks to You God, I still survive.
But can I survive now???? Or my heart will be more frozen than before??? Why I always keep losing the person that I love???? It’s still big question mark for me.
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